Entangled in the Search for a Better Identity — gangaji.org
Dear Ones,
For this month’s exploration I invite you to listen to this podcast from Gangaji. I am reminded of the pain and suffering I felt during my twenties when this search for a better identity was at its peak - the pain and suffering that led me to Gangaji and to the end of the search. Before I met Gangaji, the belief was strong that I am this body mind called Margot, and so much energy was focused on making a better version of what I believed I was. Energy was focused outwards in projection and comparison - if I could just be more like this person or that person, I would be loved and valued, I would finally feel ok, I would finally be safe and secure. I could finally rest.
Gangaji invited me to rest in that moment, to stop the search for a better identity, to stop all projections and comparisons, to be willing be imperfect, flawed, incompetent, afraid and make no movement away. In that willingness to stop, uncomfortable terror arose and it felt like I would die, but in staying open, being willing to die, something else revealed itself - empty spaciousness, vast, unmoving, peace.
No “Margot”, no others, no separation from anything. No projections or comparisons. No safety, no death. Nothing…..and everything. Fullness, joy, love. The body, mind and emotions rising and falling like the wind within an unmoving, endless sky of beingness.
You are all invited to join us to discover what is here when the efforts of self-improvement stop, what is already whole and needs no improvement at all.
We plan to gather on September 2nd from 10am to 11:30 mountain time.
5pm London
6pm Amsterdam
If you would like to join us, please contact me here for the link.
The gathering is free and donations are accepted here: